Sounds of Paradise

It rained tonight. I mean pouring down in buckets Florida style. I don't think any sound has been so beautiful in all my three months here. A good pouring rain really makes me miss home.

New Moon

I have to admit... I'm quite excited about Twilight: New Moon coming out on December 10th here in Israel. I've already re-read the first two books and watched the first movie again and now I'm ready. I just have to wait 4 more days. Ugh! I dunno if I can wait. It's so tempting to watch it online instead. Especially when movies here are over $10 per person. But I will resist. This is something meant for the BIG screen. Yay!

Loneliness

It’s hard not to be lonely here.  Both without my love and without my friends I find it quite difficult.  Placed in a country (by my own choice mind you) that barely speaks my language and I theirs, it becomes a struggle just to find daily comfort.  My family here is warm enough, though their companionship at times can be more a nuisance than a comfort.  Still the people are less comforting.  The women and girls stare daggers at me, either with vapid jealousy at my blonde hair and light eyes, or else their disgust at my obvious outsider appearance.  The men here often do stare at me.  Though I am not a skinny thing anymore, I have enhanced my assets quite a bit and it is often the object of many stares.  It does not matter that I cover up beyond their vision.  Their imaginations run wild with possibilities as men's minds often do.  I smile sweetly as is the custom in America when one grants you with a flattering or kind look.  Here however, those pleasantries are not only unobserved, but when given, you are looked upon as a beggar or vagrant with a look of “what the hell do you want?”  and a prompt turn away of the eyes.  These people, however inexpressively kind they are to friends and family are quite the opposite with strangers.  This is what plagues and stirs my loneliness.  I have friends in this country, but as I am very far south from any of them, they have no reason or cause to visit.  As I am too far out of the way.  Traveling, or rather eating and lodging while out of town is quite expensive and I have only ventured to do it a few times, either for the day or with a friend or family member to impose upon for a nights rest.  Thus is my predicament until I return home.  I suppose it is my price for my time spent in such a beautiful country as this.