Time Keeps Turning

It's a strange feeling being single again. Some days I'm not sure what to do with myself. It's been years since I've dated, but the men haven't changed. Sitll pigs, and forever boys that never become men. It's so hard to find one's self after a bad ending and a rocky re-start.
My first attempts at dating have failed miserably and the few times I've met someone I'm really interested in, he either wasn't interested or I made an idiot of myself trying to show him I liked him. I guess I'm really out of practice. It doesn't help that i'm stepping back into the game in a different country with a different culture. That part makes all of this so much harder.
People here are split. Half genuinely want to help you. The other half want something from you and it's usually quite nefarious. The problem is that it's not always clear who is who. For instance, there is a guy who seems like a very nice man who really wants to see me get settled. He's also persuing me romantically (I think). He's a 42 year old guy I met in Jerusalem. So I have to ask... What the hell does he want with a 25 year old divorcee? The truth is, I can't figure it out (aside from the obvious) but I know it creeps me out a little. It's too bad because he seems like a nice guy. A good friend. C'est la vie!
Life continues in a whirlwind around us and all we can do is hope get a small taste. This life seems to race past me and before I have time to appreciate the moment its gone. I take a deep breath and another moment passes me by. You think I would learn to pay closer attention by now but it continues to take me by surprise.
Another breath, another moment. Won't this life slow down and wait just one minute for me to catch up?!